I'm not sure what it is.....but
2021 has been the least Christmasy Christmas I've ever had.
While I try to process my feelings, I've wondered what makes me feel this way. Is it the division that is ripping our country apart? Is it the complete lack of love and respect I see for what people choose to do with their health? Is it the shift I felt in 2012 getting wider, deeper, and unrepairable until Christ returns? Is it the confusion, fear, and deception I see over our world? Could it be the job loss and devastation so many Americans are facing? Is it possibly the future I see for our children if we don't drastically change course as a nation?
ALL of the above.
We've done all the things. Celebrated. Ate. Baked. Attended Christmas parties. Watched Christmas movies. Shopped. Opened gifts. Hosted Christmas events. Surrounded ourselves with family and friends we love.
But the sparkle. warmth, and glitter the season usually holds for me isn't present.
I would be wrapped in complete anxiety and panic if it wasn't for the HOPE I have. The hope only found in Jesus. He brings me peace in the 2021 storm.
I'm fully aware that our sixteen year homeschool journey, a large home business. a church and multiple groups that surround us with many amazing like minded people. a large supportive community of family and friends.....sometimes lets me live in a happy bubble. But my heart still aches for lost people. And friends, the WORLD IS SO LOST.
Time is short. It's speeding up like birthing pains. I encourage you today to not get caught up in the trappings of this world, but turn to your Savior while you still can.
If you are like me, and feel the unseen, take heart. You are not alone. I believe these feelings, or lack thereof, are a call from Heaven to prepare for what is coming. A call this holiday to focus on the crucial.
Let me know if you have also had these feelings this 2021 Christmas season.